Odyssey... 20- Abandonment

The unresolved fear lives within Hana, acts upon her, and evolves in her even though she no longer desires to change her decision. For so many years, she has been we, us, but now as her childhood, she wakes up in every gloomy morning solitary. Moreover, in the agonizing adversity of her well known affliction, she sees the unveiled, yet deceitful magic of common gratification.

There are two days of peace between Hamid's last call and an event which will change everything to an extent of a sullen and slashing frenzy. No calls or threats disturb the serene two days for mother and sons. They even do something they have never done in the second day- dine out. In the restaurant, she does not even know what is the proper way of ordering meal from the menu. She is not familiar with these food and finally Farhad orders for her. A glass of withe wine adds to the unusual taste of the restaurant food. When the evening finally ends with this new wonderful experience for her, Farhad drives them home. In the back seat of the car, she looks at her son, and somehow she knows they will survive. Sense of living and prevailing becomes a new vivid flower to her not knowing joyless color of life. Nevertheless, as old habits die hard, a hallucinatory torture accentuates her exasperated thoughts which she does not understand it.

In the morning, a hot Saturday in August, Hana wakes up of a feverish nightmare. For awhile the jungle of humans with red, bloody eyes, she saw in her dream, seems real; but gradually she comes to her senses and remembers the same dream long ago back home. The similarity of the two dreams, ten years apart, frightens her; and she recalls the morning after the first dream, the morning of running, hiding, and surviving. Bewildered, she gets up and by washing her face tries to erase the effect of those inquisitive, bloody eyes.

To Be Continued