The men in Helen's life had ruined her, destroyed her peace of mind, her personality! So many horrible things had happened throughout her life only because of these men. All of them had made her to become someone who was not sure of herself, who did not know what she truly wanted. Jacob's calling became less and less until it stopped. But this period lasted a long time; it didn't happen overnight!
The Jacob she remembered was gone; the one who fathered a child with her was now a different kind of man! Money and power had corrupted him like Roger. She liked the Jacob, who was poor, desolate, who ran away with her from Chicago. She was still in love with him, not this new Jacob, but the one at the New Year's Eve party, the Jacob of her childhood! But she certainly had fallen out of love of this new Jacob, who was corrupt and powerful!
Meanwhile Steve mentioned them several times:
"We need to get together with them. I really like them!
Helen, who had already warned Jacob, "No more socializing!", told Steve:
"It's their turn to invite us! Why do we have to always give parties? No one ever reciprocate!"
For once, Steve agreed with her. He was puzzled why Jacob did not call him or even ever returned his calls.
"You're right. You never know people. He doesn't even return my calls!"
Helen laughed within herself at her handiwork and then said:
"See what I'm saying?" She was delightful that her threat to Jacob that she would tell his wife she was the one, who had an affair with her husband, had worked.
Every so often, after all these years, Steve would bring up Helen's first pregnancy and would begin a fight. However he was perplexed why she did not fight back anymore. He liked the old, always frightened Helen better than this new calm woman! She had decided not to fight anymore. She just did not have any control over her feelings; and what was her feelings?
She would not get angry anymore. It seemed as though cutting ties with Jacob had calmed all her nerves that were related to him. Steve, sometimes, in order to bring up the old emotional Helen out to the surface, told her awful things; but she had made up her mind on several issues; first and the most important was never to tell Steve who the father of her first born was, and then never to mix up with Jacob or any other man at all; and the third, never to get angry with Steve no matter what he did to her! As bad as he was as a husband, he was a great father and he was a hardworking man!!
To Be Continued
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