Steve was forced to agree with the doctor that Elizabeth needed formula and some baby foods besides Helen's milk. The doctor suggested different brands.
"Try them out and see which one she likes. They are all good!" He said to Helen and Steve. They left the doctor's office. Helen
sat in the back of the car, silent, shaking, crying, and trying to nurse the screaming baby. Steve drove, angry, frustrated, and was saying very unbecoming things to her:
"You;re not even a good mother!"
Nonetheless, that evening he went and bought some of the things that doctor had recommended. He prepared a bowl of cereal, and a bottle of baby formula himself and fed Elizabeth. For the first time that night the baby slept all through the night.
On his first day off from his flying, only a week later when he returned home, the baby was not crying and some color had returned to Helen's face! He did not want to admit that he knew in his heart that his child was better off, that his wife, whom he still loved passionately, was better off! After six months of misery For Helen, it took the pediatrician to play the role of a family elder to convince Steve that the reason for Elizabeth constant crying and not sleeping was that she was hungry.
Helen's headache kept returning. Steve wanted to tell her,"Oh, my sweet heart, my sweet wife, let me help you this weekend! Why don't you go and see a doctor? we need to cure your headaches!" But no, he would never talk to her this way again; he was not done punishing her. Thus, what he offensively told her was:
"There is always something wrong with you! I am sick and tired of coming home and taking care of you and Elizabeth!"
Helen thought many times in the days that Steve was not home to get her money from her safety deposit in bank and run away with Elizabeth to another city, to start all over again. But she had lost her courage; and besides she knew that Steve would find her and would punish her even worse!
Once she saw Jacob. She was putting Elizabeth in the back seat of her car after buying grocery. He was getting out of his car with his wife and two children. Their cars were parked next to each other. He was driving a different car than what he had had during their affair. Steve had bought a new car for Helen so she she did not have to drive the child in her old sporty car she used to have. That was the reason Jacob had not recognized her car and she, his car. They both were shocked. She saw in his demeanor that he was about to come and talk to her. She knew what would happen if he did. His wife would never believe him that this woman was an old friend, or someone from past he knew a long time ago, or ... Helen almost fell to get behind the wheel and to drive away. His wife was a beautiful woman, almost too beautiful! No, no she was too miserable; he could have guessed it. She was probably would have cried; no, no, she had to save him again!!
To Be Continued
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